People like to say that widows or widowers who have remarried are brave, or fearless, or give praise on how they didn’t let the worst thing that happened to them stop them from living life to the fullest. Like somehow, that terrible part of life is over and done with. Hooray, you moved on, everything …
Category: widowhood
Triggers
Society, I think, tends to believe that once a certain amount of time has passed after the death of a loved one, then it means that the ones left behind are fine and have moved on with life. Because those left behind no longer break down in public, no longer show up to work with …
Dating after widowhood
Dating and relationships after widowhood – what a loaded concept, both for the widowed and everyone surrounding them. Who am I kidding? The mere idea of it is a minefield. Society puts so much pressure on us, the widowed. Just read about Patton Oswalt, his wife's death, and his new love. He got so much …
Five years
Five years. Today marks five years since Brandon’s death. March 1 – this day will forever be burned into memory. It was the last normal day I remember; the last day before the pain, the trauma, the sheer shock of that night morphed me into the person I am today. For the rest of my …
Dream
Last night I had a Brandon dream. They’re so rare, so infrequent. The exact events of the dream are foggy at this point, but what I remember is Brandon was suddenly back, alive, breathing, and talking. It was like he went away on a long trip somewhere far, far away and had no access or …
The 5th wedding anniversary
Five years ago, roughly at the time I’m sitting here writing this, Brandon and I said our I do’s and officially became husband and wife. We didn’t have a big wedding since neither of us wanted to make any fuss about it. After all, at that point in our relationship, we already felt like we’ve …
Cup of Sorrow
Prideful, stern mountain range, the season softly whispers of change The colored birds above running, such grace, almost cunning We circled around the cavernous well, wills captured by love’s spell With cold comforts of the rain, our life left like a speeding train Alone in my defeat, I wipe a tear, seems you have me …
Box of memories
Brandon wasn't one to talk about his feelings often or make grand, romantic gestures. He thought all that lovey-dovey stuff was cliche, silly, and embarrassing. There were a few times that I wished he'd do more romantic stuff in our relationship, but for the majority of the time, I was completely okay with how things …
The things you’ve missed
This last month has been very chaotic. The big move that has been looming on the horizon for what feels like ages now has finally happened. Will and I put the cats in their carriers, loaded them up in our cars, and proceeded to drive, quite literally, across the country from Florida to the Pacific …
The Widow Mosaic 